A penny for your thoughts

It takes two to tangle, literally and largely figuratively. You can't be in a relationship that is entirely parasitic and expect that you'd be happy. Practically, I could be all out obsessive and loving, but I'm always often times guarded, to put me in check when I end up doing everything. Most at times it's unintentional and subconscious; it's like constantly placing your hands in fire, and in the process of suffering from all that pain and hurt, you just sub-consciously pull your hands from the fire, because all of those pain ain't just worth it.

In reality, I'm not much of a talker, so when you hurt me, I just suck in everything and try to forget it ever happened, which I'm not sure actually happens because the day I decide to speak up, I'd just keep pouring that shit out. It's like storing water in a 25 litres keg, when the water overflows, it just pours out.

Now, this will only happen if I care deeply about you, if not, I'll just walk away as I don't have the strength to express stored up emotions. No, I'm not weak, I'm just guarded, I have had my fair share of heartbreaks and I'm totally uninterested in having more 😕.