@raku I am proud of my health, so I DO like celebrating that fact while I still can! Even when I'm being friendly to people, and they ask why I'm not drinking, I feel this barrier appear between us - because they want me to be drinking with them, want me to be "part of the group", or they feel like I'm not accepting them.. which I AM perfectly fine with them drinking! Heck, I want to like alcohol enough to join you! Just because I'm not drinking, doesn't mean I have a problem with other people drinking, especially my friends - I love them!