I Have a Present For You

Lately I've been reading and listening to the good ol´Eckhart Tolle. I think I read the first book back in -08, and I remember it made some big changes in my view on reality and day to day level on awareness. This time though it's like the words are penetrating even further in my being. It's like I'm a tree and I can feel my roots and branches grow an inch every day.

The more I think about it( yes I know the point is to not think ;), it's makes more and more sense. All the thousands of random thoughts one has everyday is really just bullshit. They don't do any good, and the more we can train ourselves to let go of these thoughts, the happier we'll be. The more present in the moment we become, and we can see the world for what it really is. Be really present with those around us. Connect with them. God I miss that.

The part of us that thinks it knows everything is called the ego, I think that is what Tolle calls the pain body. Most of us was raised by parents with heavy pain bodies, so we never really were allowed to be ourselves fully. For quite some time I've wondered if I should hold my parents responsible for their occasional bad parenting, and emotional traumas I still can remember. Tolle's view is that we should not. Since unconscious parenting simply stems from unconsciousness, how could we ever keep them responsible? They were unconscious. And some of them still are, so they won't even understand now if you try to explain it to them. Let go of the need to be understood. Huh that was a big one for me.

Have compassion for them.

You can only change yourself.

Yes that one I've had to relearn many times.

So change yourself. And the world will change with you.

Oh was that too cliche? Probably. No worries. My goal here is to just keep expressing my self and see where it leads.

I was thinking of doing this for 30 days straight and then decide, but something tells me it will go on for so much longer. Why only 30 days? That's the mind, as Tolle would have said. Having so many plans the future that it clouds the waters of the present. I try not to make so many plans anymore. The past and the future, all happens in the NOW.

Thanks for reading.