...mid-Life crisis...?... ...nah...entering mid 40's...
…I just celebrated my 44th birthday…
…so if I live to be 88…why, then I’d have another 44 years on this Earth… …that would mean I’m half way there…
…perhaps I’ll live to be 90 or 100…
…but, quite frankly, I didn’t think I’d even live to see 30…
…in my youth I made it a sort of quest to go out in a blaze of glory like my rock & roll idols…
…when I learned that Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrison, & Kurt Cobain had all died at the age of 27…I was determined to make my 27th year the ‘good’ one…
…& yet I lived to see my 30th birthday…
…I spent an entire 6 months telling everyone about my upcoming 40th birthday…
…turns out I was only 39 that year… (literally laughing out loud)…
…despite making some choices that some might consider ‘poor’…despite some detours into hard drug addiction & self-indulgence…despite the fact that I sometimes still drink too much & struggle with staying sober…
…I’m happy with where I’m at…
…I don’t ‘feel’ old…& I’m still pretty healthy despite years of debauchery…
…I’m staying active with hobbies like hiking & kayaking…I do a little yoga from time to time…I'm learning to garden a little bit & grow some food...
…ultimately I’m just doing my best to remain optimistic…to care for myself in better ways & be a better person day by day…
…& so the inherent question…
…’what shall I do with the rest of my Life?...
…well…I don’t intend to map it out in detail…however, I do intend to be more communally, locally, & globally minded…
…I will do my best to make better decisions regarding convenience, comfort, & laziness…
…I will smile more…
…I will Love my neighbors & gossip less…
…I will pursue creativity & expression through new & exciting channels…I will take new risks & let go of old habits & ideas…
…it’s kinda’ strange, but I feel like Life is just beginning in a way…the next phase should be pretty amazing…
…it’s on to bigger & better things…physically, psychologically, emotionally…financially…
…I almost feel like a middle school kid who finally gets to junior high & enters the high school for the first time…
…the future is vast, new, exciting, challenging…& a little intimidating…
…I will not let Fear keep me from living a purposeful Life…
…thanks, everyone, for your birthday wishes…& for reading this blog all the way…lol…
…much Love & Light to you All…
…& as always…be Blessed…
Happy belated birthday, buddy! Looks like your life has taken a turn for the better and I’m happy to see that you’re doing well. We all need to get together with some acoustics again soon.
I know the feeling when suddenly some years creep up on you. But at the end of the day as active as you are your are way more healthy than a lot of 25 year olds out there.
Aging is a real thing but it is possible to slow the process down to where people half your age can't keep up.