Hamish In Memory- Part 10- Our Last Night Together. (This Post Hurts Like Hell)

sarahewaring (67)in #life • 8 years ago (edited)

There are only 3 more in my #hamishinmemory posts and then I will stop to allow myself to let him go. I have loved writing about him and this post is going to hurt as are the next 2.

But I need to finish the story.

2 days before we lost Hamish I noticed his breathing was starting to get heavy but he was still eating and drinking fine. He managed a short walk, nothing too unusual as he was starting to tire more as he got older.

They next day was a different story. He ate his dinner in the morning and had a drink but his breathing had become a little rattly. He didnt want to go outside but I made him. He was jumping up and down from the window so I thought maybe it's a little cold. Then later in the afternoon I thought I would try him for a walk as my concern was growing slightly. He only made it to the end of the street and I had to carry him back.

I managed to get an emergency appointment at the vets. They were concerned thinking it may be his heart but couldn't hear it properly because of his breathing. She gave us a number for emergency vets in case he got bad in the night took his full blood count and sent him home.

I knew it wasn't tight. My husband and I slept downstairs with him that night. My husband doesn't really do emotion much and he certainly doesn't talk when upset but he spent all night checking on his breathing. We couldn't sleep through the worry.

We didn't realise it would be our last night with him.