Wow! This is so emotional and pitiful missive from you, Behold, old things have passed away and all things had become new. So glad you're up and doing better with the best man on earth. Sometimes, we fall to rise again,also many things happened in life for a reason. He was never destined to be your man(my belief) Am damn sure that he'd regret his actions and seek compassion. Keep staying strong and be the best you can be. @theessential gat your back always! every disappointment is a blessing in disguise.