" The Darkness of Shadows "

The darkness of the shadows
Haunt
Fallow
scared of my own decisions
I cried out
but did you listen?
no
you stood there
starring
watching
observing every move
I have no one but myself
"I can do it"
I try and tell myself
but the cuts tell me different
what am I to do with all these dreams of
death
and tormenting
am I to lock it up and hide my feeling
that seems to be way
but why can't I be saved again
am I
unsaveable
unfixable
broken with every care in my heart
do I have a heart anymore
can I show love anymore
can I smile without hiding how I really feel
it goes on and on and I have nothing
no one

© Lori C.