Some of Mave's random thoughts
About 22 days ago I had written a post about taking a step back from Steemit as my Energy levels was at an all-time low.
I experienced the Steem Burnout after spending almost a year of writing and engaging in the platform. It started from commenting less and falling from the top ten of Asher's Engagement League and once out of that it just felt harder and harder to come back. I honestly tried but I just could not muster the same 6-8 hours that I would do before.
The general lack of people that I follow not posting also made it harder for me to comment and I did try to follow new people, be involved in new projects but the drive was just not there.
Even with a worthwhile program like @giftinkindph I just could not muster enough energy. It is there sitting with its stories stored in my hard drive half finished. All the hopes and dreams of the children in limbo.
There have been times that I started to write and then it just falters out, I just could not finish it. I actually feel bad about it but I just couldn't do it. I even tried to shout at myself and tell myself to suck it up princess but to no avail.
I tried to have someone else in the organization to take over at least in writing the drafts or finish what I wrote but they are afraid of doing it.
Writing this I now really feel bad.
I don't even check in Discord anymore so mostly likely Ginabot has a hundred notifications for me that isn't being read.
In terms of my Steem Power I have not powered down because I am merely hoping that this is just a phase I am in. I am just hoping that I just needed to rest.
I have kept my Steem Power delegations to most communities I am in.
I am still active in writing lore for @steemmonsters weekly and also do the Finish the Story by @bananafish so I have not completely disappeared.
From time to time I check my feeds and comment on content that is interesting.
I saw that SMT was going to be released Q1 of 2019 and I don't see it as a bad thing though. It would be better to release a solid function rather than something half baked just to reach a deadline. The more I read about SMT, the more I think it is vital for Steem to be utilized by more people.
In the same way why I liked EOS and not just because Dan is behind it. Taking about EOS, there are so much drama around it at this point. A lot of accusations of all power being centralized. There have been steps to try to fix things and so I still like EOS and how it can change the blockchain technology.
I have been involved in other Tech programs as well as the time away from Steemit has made it me possible to read about others again just like when I first started in cryptocurrency. I am able to do my own research again.
I have been able to go out and have drinks with buddies, I have been able to do cooking again and experimentations thanks to Food Wars!: Shokugeki no Soma for inspiring me to go to the kitchen again. Maybe I will share the creations.
I have been working out again and taking my dog for longer walks. In short I have been living life more away online except when I am playing Guild Wars 2.
Yet I am not sorry that I spent so many hours in Steemit before. It helped me deal with my depression and I was able to know some pretty awesome people and communities.
I have not given up on Steemit and so I will back someday hopefully!
Thank you so much for sharing this Mave! I've been wondering about you and how you're doing, but figured you'd let us know when you were good and ready to :)
I say do whatever it is that makes you happy! If it's less time here, so be it. I miss you :) but I'll live to tell that tale haha I'd rather know you're happy :)
Thanks Lynn! I am almost finish with my quests in my game hahahaha so I might go back.
hahaha @maverickinvictus, that's awesome!
Its okay mave, we understand
I particularly get that. Steemit is not meant to be a job, just a place to have fun and great information. Stop in anytime you have time
Yeah it is not meant to be a job indeed and one that I try to do when it hits me to write something.
Do whatever makes you happy. I think that everybody needs a break from the online world from time to time. And living the 'real' life is much more exciting anyway :) Good luck and hope to see you more often here soon.
Thanks for the kind words! Yeah for almost More than 10 months I was fairly consistent in my writing and engagement but now I just felt I needed to step back and do something nelse in the meantime.
Glad to hear from you. I hope you are getting the break that you need. Keep doing what you need to do.
Yeah DV a lot of things that I have not been able to do and projects left undone.
Hopefully I can go back and do something again in the platform.
Waiting for you. :)
Awww thanks Lai.
A little break from time to time is never a bad thing! Enjoy time in real life, your dog and your friends and don’t worry! When you come back we will all still be here waiting for you Mav! Hugs!!
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thanks Eve! Yeah hopefully I will be back
We're always here for sharing some nice moments together and to empower each other's energies, don't worry..do things at your own pace and always take care of you Mave 😉
Oh I really appreciate the stories and prompts that the Bananafish god sends each week.
It is a great way for me to be able to be still active in the platform and read the creative stories of my fellow adventurers!
Steemit is a tough demanding social, and being a blogger can become a full time job without you even realiseing it. You just get sucked into the vortex and you end up attached to the screen all the day, forgetting or neglecting the world out there and all the beauty it can offer.. I don't want to sound tragic, but I know what you mean and the authenticity of your words resounded with my feelings of love/hate for this platform and, sometimes, discouragement. A sincere thanks for your post: your not alone in those feelings, my friend. On the other hand, I'm happy for you dedicating time to your friends, cooking, your doggie and life out there.. I know that sometimes it's not easy to understand what one really want and to give the right priorities in life. All the best Mave and, when you feel like, we can always create great stories together in our small community 👍😎
Oh don't worry F3nix as long as bananafish continue asking to finish the story, you can count on me to submit my own interpretation and read the works of others as well and finish the journey we all started!
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