The beauty and the beast #1

I wanted to talk to you about one thing .
The beauty . I'm suffering from serious mental illness. I'm always thinking . Always .

And I think about everything . Things like that : what does this thing makes to me so I think it is beautiful .

And why does this guy thinks this thing is beautiful , and I find it disgusting ?

I need some help to understand it .

If I understand it , I will be beautiful in the eyes of everyone .

Today, I've been to the gym . First step to be beautiful .