Thank you for your vulnerability! You have made your story incredibly relatable. Around Ohio, USA, just getting into a psychiatrist is an ordeal and then they have about 15 minutes to spend with each patient. I'm a psychologist and get more time with clients than psychiatrists (and a lot less money), but still your story helped remind me of my biggest fear: someone does not feel heard.
Try out the group. maybe there will be one small insight that will help you or perhaps someone else who is feeling lost and unheard.