I've been through the ringer in my day - even to the point of my family becoming worried for me thinking "My God - that's too much tragedy for one person to handle!" Something I've realized that despite whatever path I'm walking.. life is full of steps. Some forward, some backward.. it doesn't matter. What matters is you must keep moving. Don't give up @fitmama - my experience has been that this Steemit community is very supportive and full of people willing to lend an ear if needed. Kind Regards!