You just wrote about story of my life! But do I feel like misfit, no! I think my problem, and problem of so called misfits lays in overvalued ego. I can be great friend but in return expect same devotion and that's almost impossible. Older I get easier is to simply accept that I am not "standard" person, my mental flows are totally different, sometimes erratic. There is one more flaw in our character, we expect too much out of everyone and everything!