Thank you so much means alot to hear this. I am moved at how much everyone has enjoyed my story thus far. Let me start out by saying that both of them were very young... and both acted on emotions from such a hard situation... being a mother now myself I get why I'm sure my mom made some of the choices she did and do not hold it against her at all anymore... I'm not saying I agree or disagree with how she handled it, but as a mother her job was to protect me and she felt she was doing just that. In the other hand, this has had a LONG lasting effect on EVERYONE involved...especially myself. Ive stayed quiet about it and the effects it has had on me for so long to save everyone elses feelings and I'm ready to just talk about it and vent it and be an adult in the situation and be able to step back from it all and view it as other people view it from the outside looking in. I am eager and excited to share the rest of this journey with everyone. and if I can even help one family decide to handle things differently for the kids then I have done my part and wll be satisfied :) thank you for all of your support and kind kind words!!!