My Dad & my big Brother

This is my dad,doing what he has done for all my life,singing and playing his guitar the one that my mom bought for him in the 1970's i talked him into getting it autographed by his heros Vern Gosdin and Ferlin Huskey the one and only time my dad and me went to a concert together. Ill never forget watching my dad meet vern and ferlin.this video was recorded by my oldest brother Dennis. I still have the first gift he ever gave me, a g.i. joe man. I miss him, he passed away sevral years ago due to complications with his type one diabetes. Ive recently been diagnosed with type two...im scared.
My dad has a form of kidney cancer. Its hard to thinkabout my world without my parents.
The older i get the more i think about ,whats this life all about?
Im scared.im sad. This is not me.