Midnight crisis

Hi Steemians,

I just wanted to write about some thoughts I had last night. You're in bed at night, thinking about the past few days and thinking "What have I been through?"

My current situation looks like this: I'm in the middle of my final exam. I constantly hear compliments about my work, which I do and I am involved in increasingly important decisions. I see myself as a normal person. I'm not a guru, an oracle or anything like that. But that's exactly what they expect from me. I'm supposed to make the right decision for everything.

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That's what makes me kind of skeptical. Do I deliver the performance that others expect from me? Am I the person everyone thinks I am? Generally speaking, I enjoy my job and really enjoy working. I just enjoy my work. Are these then questions that one should really ask oneself? Maybe I'm just being too self-critical. Admittedly, I'm a perfectionist. When I do something, it has to be perfect. But what does perfection mean to me? It's only perfect if I like it? Are others satisfied with my kind of perfection?

That's how I fight it.

I am passionate about making music. There is nothing better than packaging your thoughts and feelings into music. You have a valve to relieve stress and switch off. That's why you can find music on my blog. :)

Now I'd like to know if you guys have that kind of thing more often. What are you doing about it? Be very grateful for tips.