Welcome to the "community" if that's what they call it.

I don't know what you are really looking for but there are very few people in this world who will have your interest at first. And I promise, most of the time it's not your own family.

To help you with finding what it is that you want to do with yourself in your life I have this to say:

Pretend money does no exist. (And this part is very important)

What is it that you always wanted to do? Now you don't have to have an answer today or tomorrow and if you do you don't have to tell it but when you have the answer I say this, Good you do that. Better a short life lived in a happy way doing the things you love rather than a long life lived in a miserable way.