stay iron.,,,habit is a combo of set & settings+state of mind...endure..walk on people, dont bother...i was blaming myself & only myself , later when sober, realised everybody is behaving the same way, just adding more finesse to it. people are shit. stay iron & endure,,it will all be gold after, just be carefull not to get od or infected with some shit...i survived 12 years heroin, he holds your entire soul with iron clenched fist...with stimulans is just the matter of thinking , boredom etc..
wish you luck, upvoted & following

editing after visiting your profile--- i back on that last statement,,,been on meth for approx 2 months, gone crazy,,,now i get you,,sorry for my harsh reply