A Brand New Day

Today I am making the choice to change my life. Yes, it’s that simple. In order to change my life, all I need to do is make a decision, act on it, and stick with it. Today instead of sleeping in until 10-11:30AM I got up at 7:00AM with my Fiancé, Andrew to start my day early and work on myself, my life, and my future.

Four years Ago I was a Freshman in High School & that was when my journey to truly loving myself started. The two years before were truly the worst of my life. I was still closeted, I was extremely depressed &, I just didn’t see anything worth living for. Once I entered High School all of that changed for me.

I started caring about my grades, I stopped caring about what other people thought of me, I became active in organizations that worked with my passions. I found myself & loved who I was. As of recently I started to notice that I have started to fall behind with all of the self confidence I built up... its like I forgot all of those important life lessons that I took so seriously.

Unfortunately depression started kicking in again this year. Insecurities of my abilities to do things, the acne on my face, the way I talk, and all kinds of other stuff started getting to my head again. Sometimes I think I want to be “too perfect” & I forget that I AM perfect exactly how I am. Self improvement will never hurt & I am currently in the process of regaining the confidence I had before, taking care of myself physically, emotionally, & mentally, & while working hard on my deepest passions.

My mental and emotional state hasn’t been caused by another person or recent experiences. Sometimes I get so lost in the cycle of my everyday life that I forget some really important things like taking care of myself and taking the time to do things that I really love. Just forgetting about a goal, or dropping a routine for even a day knows how to have a huge impact on a person one way or another. Being ware of it & acting on it is extremely important.

I’m sharing this, because I want to be honest about how I am feeling and what my life is really like. Sharing this stuff has always helped me, getting out the true dark stuff is hard.. but so rewarding. It’s always helped me every time wether it was through vlogging, tweeting, talking to friends, or even writing it out on paper.

Today is a brand new day. I made the decision to change my life for the better, what will you do with today?