I can definitely relate to this. When my father broke his hip and I realize my parents suddenly needed long-term help, I had only brought some clothing and a very few things in a suitcase, too, leaving books, music, crystals, and so many things behind, including my own home and husband, just like you. When winter arrived, I didn't have a warm coat or sweaters or boots, as they were all back "home" in another state, and I had to scramble to a Thrift Store to get some things. It was quite disconcerting and gave me a somewhat "empty" feeling, as though I didn't really "belong" there. But, I had to stick it out.

Having been through it, though, I wish I had some solid advice for you on how to deal with those feelings, but unfortunately it is something you have to handle in your own way. I just muddled through it, somehow, as you are also doing now. Just keep reminding yourself of how important you are in the scheme of things, and how much logic and order you are brining to the situation.

I am glad you are spending some time with us on Discord, to let yourself be surrounded by familiar faces and voices, at least. I also hope your mother realizes how very fortunate she is to have a loving daughter there to help her look after things while she is healing and adjusting to her circumstances. You are certainly a gem, and we love you! 💎