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RE: It is quite depressing to live with lesser personal social interaction

in WORLD OF XPILAR2 months ago

It is fun to watch TV with my mother but not my father. When my father for example watches the local news with us, if he did not like what the reporter or the news, he would switch the channel to the annoyance of both me and my mother.

But watching something like game shows with my mother I would enjoy it because its just fun to watch TV with my mother.

Now our TV is broken and I am yet to buy a new one. I am afraid to buy because these Smart TVs are expensive and my father has a habit of destroying stuffs that I bought like the stove that I bought which he disassembled because some part of the burner got chipped away although it can be still used, it is a gas powered infrared stove. He was also the one who broke the TV remote two times.

After seeing it I told them that I will not buy any appliance again especially when I remember that stove.

Now my parent's and form of entertainment is via Smartphones while I myself use laptop and only using a Smartphone when I am away from the house or using an app for some purpose.

I do like talking to people but I can only last long until I start to tremble, sweat, and lose my sense of taste. It is because of my anxiety issue, even when I am talking to a friend, my body acts differently, maybe because of my before, brewing illness until it got full-blown total renal failure.

Most of the time I was not the one who breaks the ice so to speak when it comes to conversations. I am not a conversationalist and when I try, these subtle signs, jests, gestures ,and actions of persons and people whom I am interacting with will soon bother me and I will end-up stopping either not talking to that person forever or will just talk to them only if they would ask a question but definitely I will not hang-up with them anymore.

I am a very sensitive person and I always feel that other people are hostile in one form of another against me and when I sense just a bit of what I said above, these people or person will be crossed-out from my interaction list.

As soon as I get much better with my backbone I will give the painting a go.

Thank you for your much valuable advices Miss @wakeupkitty I always appreciate it with my heart. 🌹🌹🌹

Lovely flower there, what is the name?