I feel for you and it is great to share your thoughts in this sort of way as it makes it have more clarity. Steem has been a healer for me in so many ways and I didn't even know it. Have a good day anyway and hopefully next time it will be a bit better.
Hey there, thanks for your reply, and I agree completely, sharing things here has been an excellent experience mostly, probably due to the fact most of us here feel the same way, or are open to allowing others their own thoughts, emotions and feelings. It's a nice community.