It's strange, sometimes, what one writes. Not everything is part of the artist. It would be difficult to stop painting or writing. Although I've gone a long time without writing, the muses have always been around me.
Thoughts can always be changed for the better. It's an obligation to change, to improve, to be better people.
Buy a car? Unless it's a toy. Fish tanks are expensive, like everything else. Fish in the world aren't classified as pets; they're among luxury items.