After I read this

How is everyone's life going? I hope that everyone is well and in good health . By Allah's mercy, I'm doing well too. Maybe we will not survive this year. We may not have the next year.

and saw your picture I can only come to the conclusion you are by far not satisfies let alone happy with your life and if that's the case you shouldn't say you are fine since you are clearly not okay.

The fist thing we learn at school is do not start every sentence with "THEN". Give it a try, delete the word and write a bit more creative since you have stories to tell.

I wish you strength but above all some happiness. If no one gives it to you create your own little heaven of peace.