Tortuga Harbor - short story " i Hope you like it "

Everything is permitted, we were allowed to wear silver teeth, gold jewelry, wooden legs, drink wine at noon, and have lots of children after sleeping with prostitutes.
We docked at Tortuga Harbor.. As soon as we arrived at the port.. some of us were slapped in the face by women we did not remember, claiming to be the fathers of their illegitimate children, and the women were slapped on the buttocks by pirates waiting to see the women then, they do not differentiate between beautiful and ugly.

Tortuga was like heaven to us.. all the pirates know that God's heaven does not contain places for the likes of us.
The taverns are open until the sun rises.. we had plenty of time to drink as much wine as we wanted and sleep with women until our strength failed us.
In the morning.. everyone was asleep and those who were awake were suffering from the effects of drunkenness, I staggered out of the tavern.. I vomited my guts, then continued walking.
I was hungry so I went to the market, I took an apple and saw her wearing a white linen dress, carrying bread and fruit while walking alone in the crowded market.
I went to her to be friendly, she ignored me and continued walking, she was repelled by me whenever I approached her despite my sweet tongue, but I realized the real problem, my smell was like the smell of a grave.
I saw a water gutter so I stood under it to take a shower, she saw me and laughed, her laugh was gentle so I laughed at her, until she turned her face away from me and disappeared between the houses adjacent to each other on top of the mountain.
I followed her path between the houses, until I saw her again, I called her, she stopped walking and looked at me saying: I can't talk to a pirate
But I'm not a pirate - I said
She laughed again and said: You dress like a pirate and you smell like a pirate
I can be a gentleman if you want - I said
She asked me: How so?
I straightened my clothes and tucked my shirt into my pants, then took the scarf she was wearing around her neck and wrapped it around my neck.
I asked her: Can you refuse to talk to that handsome noble man standing in front of you?
She grabbed the ends of her dress and bowed halfway, saying: It is an honor, sir.
I asked her: Where are you going?
I have to go home to feed my brothers - she said.
I offered to walk with her home. She agreed. I carried the food for her until we reached the house, and before I left, I approached her to kiss her, but she moved away from me.
She slapped me hard.
So I asked her: Why is that? She said: I am not a whore, there is something called honor if you haven't heard of it
told her: But I don't sleep with whores
She mocked my words and in a sharp tone said: Yes.. It is clear that pirates don't sleep with whores
I put the key in the door to enter the house, I held her hand and swore to her that I did not mean to hurt her feelings.
She looked at me and said: Maybe I am not like them.. But in the end you are a pirate.
I swore to her on my honor that I see her different from the women I have met in my life.
She said: Do you know the meaning of honor?
I felt ashamed.. I left her hand and left her.. I arrived at the bar and drank wine like a thirsty whale.
The captain said that we will move tomorrow morning.. I did not want to go with him, I wanted to leave the ship and stay, but I am not good at doing anything in my life except piracy. While I was sitting alone thinking about her.. The captain sat next to me and shared a bottle of wine with me then asked me: Where were you all day.. We were looking for you?
You were in the market - I answered him
He said: You weren't just in the market.. There's something else
I evaded the answer and told him: I was in the market getting some food
He asked me: And where is the food?
I didn't answer his question.. He smiled and left me the bottle of wine then said: We will move tomorrow, the port is a station, nothing more, don't let your heart get attached to it
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At dawn the next day.. We carried the provisions and barrels of wine and boarded the ship.
I saw her standing next to the wooden ladder of the ship.. I went to her to say goodbye.. I saw her eyes sad as if the tears were trapped and refused to fall on her cheeks.
I asked her: Why are you crying?
She said: After I left yesterday.. Pirates attacked my house and beat my father because he owed them money.
I asked her: Did any of them approach you?
She did not answer my question.. But the tears held back in her eyes streamed down her cheeks. She kept crying and did not stop crying until I hugged her.
In an angry tone she said: If you know anything about honor.. Take revenge on them for me.
I asked her: Can you recognize their faces?
She nodded and pointed to the crew members and the captain.
I looked into her eyes for a while then looked at the ship and asked her to leave and made my decision without thinking.
I set the ship on fire.. It was burning slowly while the crew members were throwing themselves into the water. The captain did not move and did not say a word. He stood tall looking at me and his eyes were burning with anger and hatred.
I knew then that I was not a pirate as I claimed to be, and that I had a heart that beat for something different, something stronger than the storms of the seas, intoxication and the ecstasy of sex.
She was innocent in the white dress and I was a treacherous lying pirate waiting for death.
My fate was inevitable.. But I wanted her to know..
That I know the meaning of honor.