RE: Art Explained by A Writer: The Inundation of The Biesbosch 1421 (1856)
I don't want to fall in love, much less love someone. I carry many marks inside me, and NOT good ones. Imagine, my sister is bullying me, and my girlfriend is cheating on me. I was little. All of this and more has formed a very, very strong character in ME, but I'm getting up from all of this and deciding to move forward.
Currently, my sister is looking for me and I'm NOT responding. I can't forget years and years of abuse. Now is my time. NO is my answer, and it will always be that way.
As for my girlfriend, when I left my country, she was already alone. I saw her, pulled my car over, and told her, "get on the platform, I'm in a hurry."If life puts her in my path I will despise her as much as I can, that is what she will receive from me, she does NOT deserve more.
I'm a faithful man, and it seems like women don't like it. Well, I demand the same, and I don't think I'll find it.
There are plenty of faithful women dear friend. I experienced the same as you and not once but many more times. Perhaps its part of life or how we can learn to tell the difference. It's not all gold that shines. I noticed that I always attract people (women included) knocking at my door for help, to solve their problems, people who would never help me. I learned that as soon as I changed these type of people disappeared out of my life.
I also have no longer expectations if it comes to friendships. Most people are not able to invest in relationships. No matter if it's family, friendships or a partner, I see it everywhere around me. Can be I am old-fashioned or remember how life is without a phone and alle the extras people have today and still they lack time. It beats me why. An SMS or text is quickly sent even if you are on the toilet.
I believe I told you about that friend as I travelled 1600 kilometres and she said she was busy, although she knew I was there.. busy for over 3 weeks, not even one hour??? As I arrived back, she sent an SMS she would message me if she had time next day (she already messaged me so what's the idea behind this?). I am still waiting. Well, not really waiting, I know how she is so I continue my life and do what I like most. Not more not less. If she has something to offer or time,e it's fine if I have time. I don't feel any grudge, it's a waste of time and energy. She will not change and what counts for her counts for most people.
I can tell you a faithful man is very hard to find, and with us not many women want a relationship. Most of them are way better of being single.
Have a happy day and take those signs of joy and love offered without getting strangled into something you don't want!