I'm a Gemini. Borderline gemini xD. I am a middle child. I have had extreme anger issues, and honestly the first few lines of your comment explain me. We both might be the same person haha.

I think more than dreading over death it is important to accept it as a fact. Kullo nafsin zaiqatul mout. You can't escape it so how about talk about it beforehand so that you save yourself a lot of emotional trauma and stuff? I like to take deaths as a joke and that's what people don't like about me probably because they think I'm heartless but in my mind I know why am I doing this, so that when it happens, I already am prepared for it. Only time will tell