Trying to get away from a typical "machista".

"My six beautiful kids, their husband, wife and two grand babies. I'm the lady in the middle with big gold necklace and maroon shirt. No, my abuser is not in this pic."

Please help me....with encouragement and positive language only. I love Bible passages.

"With one of my three princesses."

We have tried professional counseling services, but have failed, in my opinion, to put God first. He is a hard worker but an alcoholic with multiple personalities. One in which, I fell in love with and the one I care for. The others fill me with sadness, anger and confusion. 😞

It's been over a year and a half. Many things have changed since. My smiles have become frowns, my heart has grown cold, my words have become defensive,...my vocabulary much stronger and slightly different than what I was taught at home. I am definitely not the same.

My family loves me and worries about me. But they do not know the reality in which I live each and every day. Three older kids are gone, married and I have three teens at home learning from me. How did their mom become this very strong, independent entrepreneur single mom to a low self-esteem lady with an overly possessive, jealous freak?

Lately, I've secluded myself to really think about my little ones and my life. I have registered to take a class to learn software coding but schooling is very expensive. I also love natural medicine and natural alternatives for overall human health and wellness. I'm taking Dr. Ax's online essential oil program. So far, I have two lessons completed and ten lessons to go. He has strictly condemned any type of studying or anything having to do were men might be involved or earning any type of income on my own.

I know this is wrong and it goes against everything my parents taught me growing up and against everything I have taught my children in raising them.

For now, I will be posting updates, as a therapy...to become stronger and more self willed and to build courage to leave this man who doesn't deserve me or my little family or any ties and connections.

More to come....this saga continues.

Please click to give....then share to help me achieve financial assistance to gain my independence much sooner.

This is my first post and I pray it becomes popular so that other women in the same situation gain encouragement and do the same! There is power in numbers. Positive ones, of course.

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@issa 💋

God bless!