Let him go

I didn't tell him the reason for the meeting
beforehand but for me it was high time I said "Goodbye".

source

I'd been in a very toxic relationship with Leo for 13 years.
I'd been Punched, spat on and cursed
whenever he was drunk and depressed because of my childlessness yet I felt a better life without him was an illusion.
And Finally after I'd poured out my heart
and said goodbye, tears dropped on his sober looking face and I remembered again that
there's no life without him because we'd made a blood covenant.

I'd either stay

But he won't let me be. He wants to make my life miserable so I'll just commit suicide.

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No matter how much you love him/her, don't ever get into a blood covenant. Your lover today could be your enemy tomorrow