Some fond memories

Growing up, I do not have many good memories but still there were some moments which still lingers on my mind and all I feel is love and joy when I think of them. Mom and dad were both there but they were separated and me and my sister lived with my dad. His temper was something that I always feared, in a split of second he would rage up. But over a period of time, I could judge his behavior and anticipate when he would rage up. I was my dad's favorite and with me he was always very gentle. He would all the time tell me that I remind him of his mother and I must be her form only. He was very attached to his mother and that's probably one reason that he was soft with me.

Why I am writing all of this today? It's mother's day and for me he was my mother and father both and given all the conditions, the way he took care of me and my sister, I have huge respect for him on that. He taught me everything that a Mother would teach her daughter. I would go to market with him, he would teach me to buy things, when my friends would come home he would make special dishes for all of us, he took me to movies and shopping. He made all the efforts to not make me miss my mother. Still there were times when I would long for my mother, I was small then, I did not understand their differences and their problems, and I would make a fuss. Just for my sake, he would then allow mom to come home and spend time with us. Now I do understand how hard it must have been for him to do those things, given the circumstances of their relationship break up.

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For me my dad was just not a hero, he was a super hero. He had end number of health issues, but he never complained or never lacked in taking care of us. He never spent money on himself. He was not rich, had moderate income but he gave us a decent life. There was no luxury but all our needs were met and in the bargain he never took care of his own needs. His whole life he dedicated to me and sister. If he was in a very good mood then we would go to the beach and there we would have some local food which we enjoyed and that brought us so much joy. Those were the simpler days and they have created such sweet memories.

My mother is still around with me, and I love her too very much, after my father was gone, I got to spend more time with my mother. I feel like they had made an agreement to divide their life with us.

The regret that I have is, he did not live long, he passed away too early. If he would had been alive, he would had been so proud to see me and my sister doing well in our lives. And we both would have done so many things for him. We would have given him all the joy in the world that he had never experienced. If he would had been alive, I would have made him travel to places, which he loved but never did because of money. I would have given him a good comfortable life and taken good care of his health. God had his own plans, he made my father do everything for us but he did not give us opportunity to pay him back. It's been 25 years that he has left me, but there is not a single day when I do not remember him. He keeps coming in my dreams often till date. I feel he is walking with me all the time. He was a God sent Angel to me.

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