Very brave @mayb, thank you for sharing your story. I know this is 9 months old, that you have been absent for a while and have now returned to assist others through meditations, clearings etc 🔆 - I have been enjoying them and am glad that you continue to make them without getting discouraged by low numbers blah blah! You've obviously spent a lot of time and effort making them, and you look like you've had fun too - eg adding in little whispers which fade in and out, left/right ear - makes me giggle inside sometimes :) ... really like and appreciate your laidback style of presentation and going with the flow....the one on the Hermetic Principles was superb....in fact, that's how I came across you as it had been resteemed by Frank Bacon, purveyor of fine rabbithole links that he is!

Reading through these four parts of your story, I had been wondering where I could drop you a line, say hi and just acknowledge with respect what you have lived through and are consciously healing yourself from (and there's no greater priority IMO than healing :). Then you ended this, the last part with a question... You've probably - of course you have, it's clear - had a lot of questions answered since you wrote this. I've only one possible perspective on this that comes to mind. I lay it out softly, but without distortion:

Everything is connected. There may be past life as well as present life experiences linked to the same place...especially if there is unbalanced polarity that needs to be addressed. Perhaps there were two different roles played, in different lives......experience - at the 'higher' level - is beyond judgement of 'good' or 'bad', it is simply experience to learn and grow from.

....hope it makes some sense. I only say this because of "This scene confused me a lot. The Wewelsburg looked different from what I was used to see. Everything looked so different. The trees were bigger, there were so much more trees, the light seemed unusual. I even wondered about myself. Because I didn't feel like a child or even a woman. I felt like being a man."

Very nice to meet you Sister 🔆 🔆 🔆

P.S. just as I was about to hit post, Ginabot notified me that you had started to follow me ... 🔆