Life And Death
Hello Ya'll, I have never blogged before but decided to start by sharing my two experiences of death or near death before! I was never raised religiously and as a result spent much of my youth pondering what exists beyond this life, after these two experiences i really havn't given much thought about it haha ^=), Hope this becomes useful to someone!
The First time i had a near death experience, it was because of a seizure caused from dehydration. This happened in the middle of a gas station parking lot and started floating out of my body. Forgetting who or what i was, this was the most joyous loving experience i have ever had. Noticing the people around me on the ground bellow i started to become a part of everything. All the grass, the trees the birds, the sweat on people's faces-i felt like the world server, holding up this world as we know it. Think of an apple, your probably seeing a single side of this object-however, my experience was as if looking from all directions at the same time AND Simultaneously Being The Apple Haha! This was pure love, i have never thought about death again.
The Second Time, I had eaten a fly agaric mushroom-the red ones with white polkadots made famous by mario! On This occasion i literally saw the universe created and destroyed before my eyes as i felt i lived through every single thing that has Ever Happened! it started in a room, i was laying on a couch from quite a stomach ache and suddenly got up and saw an X marked in the floor and said "There, That Is the Center of the Universe" This first room was lit but my apartment had a 15ft hallway leading to an open dark room. i was guided into this dark room and when i came back to the original lit space One Entire Side of my six sided cube apartment was missing. Just totally dark. i continued guided down the hallway into the dark, back to the light 5 more times until not a single side remained. At This Point(Just Like The Universe) There Was Absolutely Nothing! And As Soon AS NOTHING REALIZED, THATS ALL THERE WAS-The Universe Began! A Single Point Became Two With Awareness and on a 4 dimensional coordinate grid(6 axis) i began accumulating other conditions the universe has since taken upon itself! emptiness, sound, light, dark, matter, immaterial - all spooling around on this grid. Eventually we got so far out i became single cellular organism like bacteria and lived for billions of years as algae, and then even remember being deer and all kinds of animals. I felt like i had lived through every single thing that has ever existed! and then there was me and i lived through my life and thought i died.
Moral of the story kids! Life is short but don't be scared of it, in the end for me twice it was a very natural feeling thing. i now believe death is a choice on some level and have never given it a second thought since. Just like Christians talk about faith in god, have faith that every thing whether up or down in life is leading you towards a greater sense of understanding in yourself! it is remarkable to be a part of this billions of year old machine called the universe. And YOU ARE A PART OF IT! Literally haha XD! Try escaping to idk where if you want, but death is the catcher that reminds us all WE BELONG ^=)!!!! Thanks Ya'll!