Oh, that Poe reference encapsulates that feeling of depression. I hear you so loudly. There's a few of us that write about depression and mental health on the blockchain, so you aren't alone. If you're interested, check out @naturalmedicine (you'll see the link on my banner underneath the post) and in the archives in Discord you'll archives that have some good posts about anxiety and depression. I find it remarkable that play can also help with this - not something I've considered before putting it into words, but it makes sense, doesn't it? Music and dance and free form expression can be beautiful for that - remapping our neural pathways too, helping us explore outside of our cave. I get this in yoga too, the body becomes an expression of how I'm feeling. Life is complicated, no?