I definitely resonate.

Spending time with family, partner or friends is great, but no matter how amazing a time I am having with any of them and no matter how much I feel at home while being with them, being just with myself, the alone time, for me should be the inner base camp which when returning into will always endow me with that tad more feeling of being truly at home than I could have when being with anyone (or anything) else, for in the end I am the one whom I have to hang out with for good. So I should be my best friend. Also, the melancholic ephemerality created by the illusion of time takes hold of me most palpably when around or with other people. When I am just with myself - without any self-imposed obligations or outwardly induced expectations I think I need to meet, without any other human's energy field in my vicinity - after some time of detachment from all of this I am finally able to settle into my most authentic energy of absolute calm, timelessness and purity. In soliloquies I find my most empathic interlocutor, in silence highest vibrational music. It is in these moments that I most obviously feel and witness the extraordinary fruits of my inner work I have been doing so extensively over many years: feeling so at home in and with myself; no need to escape myself, realising that I accept myself exactly as I am, breathing in harmony with the pulse of the surrounding nature, hence joining into the most splendid Unity flow in the infinite Love ocean.

Thanks for the contemplative inspiration ;)