I know this feel. I lost my best friend almost 4 years ago, it took me several years before I could look at a picture of her without tearing up. It broke me, and it was so painful losing her. I'm doing a lot better now, but I miss her, and I tear up just writing this. <3 I have 3 other dogs now that I absolutely love, but they can of course never replace the one I lost. She was, and always will be, my special one.

I'm so sorry for your loss.