Afraid to be judged outside.

in #desteni8 years ago

I get really scared going outside and being around people.

I know I can be more confident and carry who I am.

I see that I judge both myself and other's when I go outside.

I'd like to be able to go outside without judgement of myself and everyone around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people judging me when I go outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure when I go outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge everyone when I go outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everyone judging me when I go outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to put on my best face every time I go outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less then others that my mind is too crazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as crazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unattractive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as unattractive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to supress how difficult it is for me to go outside where I'm too busy to deal with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for why I have difficulty even going outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being taken advantage of outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from others through my mind when I go outside.

When and as I see myself standing in sepertation to other's while outside, I stop, I breathe, I realize that the experience of being seperated from others while outside is a good opportunity to see what I am seperated from, and take it back to myself in my living application like magic, thus, I commit myself to take everything I seperate myself from through other's and take it back to me and my living to then gain power through other's instead of diminishing myself further.

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Nice post, i feel too the same sensation and i think i need more forgivness too. i am not kind with myself.