I had to read in school those "Problembücher", books about kids, young adults, having issues. Mostly drug issues.
So boring, couldn't relate. Hated it, did read way better book in private.
Now, me grown up, still cannot relate.
Maybe in another 30 years I will know better?
I am sorry that you were educated 'progressively'.
It does explain why you can not free yourself from the indoctrination and are scared to think on your own.
Must have been hell.
If you ever want to talk about it - I will do my best to help you.