I completely understand where you're coming from because I am like that myself. Haggling can be really uncomfortable, especially if you're not naturally good at it. It sounds like you've had some experiences that made you feel even more hesitant, and that's totally valid.

It's admirable that you respect the merchant's pricing and their work. You're right, they've put a lot of effort into their business, and it's not always easy to negotiate. You're taking a stand against the pressure to always haggle, and that's something to be proud of.

Although, some sellers has this wicked attitude of skyrocketing the price of their goods. Hence, it is smart to shop around and compare prices. That way, you can find a deal that works for you without feeling like you're taking advantage of anyone.

There's no need to feel bad about not being a natural haggler. You're doing what feels right for you, and that's all that matters.