You are certainly a role model @sallylloyd I've pretty much put myself on that same path. I'm now in a remote place that offers great natural resources (VERY thankful for that) have pulled myself out of the rat race of futility. Love the ability to order the box food when needed too. Just wanted to remark on your statement: "smallholding to grow our own food" turn the dirt up in a few places, toss some seeds in, cover with a little dirt and water occasionally. You may be surprised at what will come up and flourish. :) I know I was!