Hello everyone, I'm back again

I usually get busy at school and being a research student in East China University of Science and Technology can be a tortue to me. Luckily I have sent all of my papers and dissertation to my director. She is a man whose characteristic is multi-tasked.
During the last half of year, everyone in blockchain and cryptocurrency is starved by the sharp evaporation of price and have to face a condition full of sadness and torture. But luckily, as a student, I was supported by my mother and had a peaceful life.
Because of the interest in mathematics, I communicated with the director of school of science and found that the financial support to mathematics research is low and the poor condition forces vertually everyone majored in mathematics to work as well as study hard topics in school. And he compared the difference between China in 2010 and USA in 1900. He said that the rich in China don't invest in education and mathematics professors have to seek help from government. Private university nearly does not exist in China since management in China tends to improperly executed. Many people have to do part time jobs in order to make a living.
These sad words made me to realize the reality and after graduation I need to find a job.
2019 is a lucky year for China since in Tsinghua University, the open courses held by Yau-Shingtung Mathematical Sciences Center will hold open courses in many branches of mathematics including geometry, topology, differential equation and generalized relativity. I have to admit the huge icons produced by the western culture is forming the basic atmosphere of what we face today. And I have raised a specific interest in the Judism since it contain deep and excellent ideas. In China, sometimes we young man need to face the so-called "reality " and to actively enroll in "social practice". But at least, I think the interest to life should maintain and the courage to appreciate the world should after all be cherished since you can't expect a world without diversity in thinking.
As for now, I am seeking job and to make a stable life, people always competing a government job which used to be a "closed contour of city". Recently I've heard some examples of accidental death and abnormal suicide in the government employees and I feel nervous.
Which job to choose depends on the qualification examinations held across the whole continent and it feels so strange since you have to accept a lot of defined and manmade strange rules which was such a shit to me nearly four years ago.
Nowadays, China and American are having trade wars and it makes every Chinese nervous since that means the start of decreasing of life quality.
As a young man full of dream but have to yield to the strong pressure from parents and society. Such condition maybe sufficient strange to you readers from western counties but do you strong enough to to ahead and stick to your dreams even if there is no support and care ?
Look forward for your feedback and tell me something interesting during your job hunting.