I need all the love in the world that I can get but only a few people can really deliver it
Love, love, love,...all we need is love.
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Life is still great with God in your life.
It still bothers me about thinking that if my immediate family will not be anymore here to give me all the love and support that I need because of my physical condition because I need them and even their physical existence gives me peace of mind. Over the years I had proven to myself based on experience that none outside my immediate family can give me what my immediate family can give in terms of love and support.
It is too bad for me that I wasn't able to raise my own family because of my disability right before I was born because medical evidence from the past had suggested that I will be in a different path of life and I truly hate what I had become because it is too damn hard now as people sees me as just a sub-human and it makes me feel threatened in many ways more than one.
That is why I want to be empowered so that I can face the challenges that will surely happen in the time that I will have to fend for myself because I do not know if I will still exist more years than I am anticipating. It is a mixed feeling if I want to live longer or just burn-out that fast because for me, it is still great to see the light of another day surrounded by family that loves me greatly but in the other hand I just don't want to exists anymore if my family will be no where to be found anymore.
I also have church brethren that I can call if I happen to need things like assistance and such but they will not be able to replace the love and care of my family. However I appreciate the fact that I can have something to support me in some ways unlike other people who doesn't have it where their relatives doesn't care anymore.
But think that my financial net worth will be a factor for my relatives to bring me in and that is something that gives me a little peace of mind. So in that regard, money will play a big role about my survival in this world (like we all do) when things go further south about my situation for being alone in the coming future. Yeah it is a part of life, people that we love no matter who they are whether they are a family or not and even us will have to leave this world and it gets painful because we have feelings and we have to accept that fact.
That is why we have to express our love and cherish it when we receive it because it will end soon especially when we know that the ones giving and receiving it are humans and are just temporary voyagers of this world. The good news is that there is a place called heaven and it is more than relieving that if we go there, there are no more bad things like we are experiencing here on earth will not happen anymore. So living under God's guidance in terms of doing his will pays a lot and it is not that hard because it boils down to loving your neighbor which makes a great difference for you and the rest of the word if only all people will do it everyday, then this world will like be heaven like we all wanted it to be for the sake of our happiness while we are temporarily living our lives.
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Love is a difficult topic. It's a feeling and needed, but it doesn't mean that we accept it from everyone, which makes it even harder. You can be in love, but what if you don't feel it or what if you don't like that person?
It's the second time in a short time you start this topic by writing this, you proved that there's no one around, no one like your family, who can support you. We talked about it before, and you mentioned there's help, which is a plus but it doesn't take that feeling of loneliness away.
I truly hope that it will never end this way, but like you I also wouldn't know how to react in a situation like this. I asked myself if I would like to see the next morning, the sun come up but I can't say a full yes, although there are plenty of things I like to do and finish.
Friend, I started painting again and I hope you will too. it might not be that interesting, but ugly artworks wonderwell. It's painting with feelings, and if not in the mood, you just paint a page black or blue or red.
Back to love, being loved moreover receiving support.. Indeed, with money one can buy everything, comfort and company included. It can be it's not the company we want in the first place, but what isn't there can grow and bloom if you give it a chance.
It feels like you are the only one, I am, all the others are, but that's not the case. Some have support, others are loved, many haven't both, but they are still alive. Why? Because they found a way and grew strong in a different way or learned how to ask and enjoy. It's no crime to do so and important is to open up and ask for what you need and stand for your rights. Mom is doing this now for you but you can too. You did it with the nurse through WhatsApp remember?
I don't have the solution for the lack of love, the family you wish you had but there are people around. Some you might not have met but they can be the miracles you need when you believe there's no way out. Do you only need practical help? Right now you might but you can walk to the bathroom, don't struggle that much with breathing. Your health can improve more, enough to take care of yourself, be optimistic and open the door to hearts.
For now I can only say: try to enjoy the moments you have, even if you sweat, do something positive for you instead of always sacrificing yourself.
A big hug to you!
Even if I have some group of people to fall back on, it will still not fill the void of emotional support that I got from my immediate family and it pains me to think a bout it.
But I think that God will not allow me to suffer lack of support because my church (MCGI.org) will always be there to give me a helping hand and that is what separates me from other people who will or might face the same predicament like losing a family member that truly cares for me which nobody can really equal.
But I have to be as strong as I can be and cherish every moment that I have like you said because everything in this world will end and not all endings are happy.
I appreciate your hugs! 🧡🧡🧡
I do understand what you mean but imagine you meet someone or you would have started, or will start a family, will you still say the same and those new family members can never replace your present family?
If that's how you feel how can you meet people and build relationships?
There are times you have to jump, take some risks and see what happens. The world is crowded so it must be possible to meet a few during lifetime we can trust and be close with, who do make you feel good.
My friend let's give you another hug 🤗🤗🤗
Try to find a way to make yourself feel better. You deserve it.
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