Fear, Thoughts or Me?

So, I've been thinking of how to create value and make money, I mean sell something.

And the bright idea that came to my head was "Write a E-Novel".

Now as this thoughts came , so did a familiar feeling with...well , I don't know it's name yet or what to call it,but I'll try describing the feeling as best as I actually feel about it.

You see ...The thing is instead of a rush of excitement and eagerness to start right away , I begin by the first negative words that always comes.
" You can't do it" it'll say and a flood follows throwing the doors of my frail mind open as it drowns the little spark if light birthed by the pure magic of thought.

It snuffs it and just smashes me against the brick hard wall if the dried well called my past.

This goes on and on until I later give in to the current and let it do whatever it will with me.

This may seem too off with you but I'll have you know that as a reader of this write-up .

I have found a way around the big rush of dark water. I realize that its when I fight the current that I get tired and forget that initial aim is to change my current state "one mistake at a time".

So , now the plan is I shouldn't fight in hopes of things to be easy but in hopes to be stronger when I face familiar situations.

And to also learn to immerse and , but , as I'm being carried away to also be aware.

NB : None of the used pictures are mine they were all gotten from google , and I do not take any credit for any of them. Thanks !!

Otto-11-11