I'm so tired

I'm so tired of I don't even know what.
I'd like to be better, I'm fighting to be, but I don't know if I'm succeeding.
I wake up and I feel tired of things, of my school, of the people I see on the bus. I'm tired of the rain.
I'm feeling lost and without future. I feel sad waking up without having my loved one beside me.
I'm fighting for changing my attitude, I'm tryng ti keep a positive think. For living happily, or at least, without black in my life.
I will succeed, for me, myselfe, and my soulmate. But for now, I have to keep learn of life works, and how to deal with it. Even in the darkest hours