I don't usually think much about zodiac signs, because I don't think they define a person very well. I can find something from any sign that goes with my personality and everything that's said about Leos doesn't apply to me as well. Yuh, I'm a Leo as you would've figured out by now from the title and the introduction.

But there's one thing that always makes me feel like a true lioness (Leo) and that's the constant longing for sunshine and warmth. I am the kind of person who has 24 degrees at home, indoors, and I'm wearing a hoodie and I still cover myself with a blanket while laying on the sofa and watching tv. Of course that might also be because I have a bad blood circulation and my toes and fingers are just naturally cold all the time which makes me feel chilly quite often. BUT.. the fact still is that I love feeling warm.

That isn't all. There's one more thing related to the whole "feeling warm and nice" situation and that's the Sun. I cannot even say how much I miss the Sun. You see, here in estonia, during the 6 months of winter we don't get to see Sun very often. There can literally be only 1 or 2 days of a month where you can see the Sun. We don't live in the dark, don't get me wrong. We don't have polar nights here and we still get vaguely "6 hours of sunshine" a day, but... that glowing yellow light is just hidden somewhere behind the clouds. It's pretty much constantly grey and depressing here, mixed with windy, cold, muddy etc.

This winter seems to be the worst for me from last few years. Usually when there's snow there are quite a lot of days with clear sunshine, but this year we haven't had proper snow and therefore much less actual blue sky with the Sun. And I feel so tired from it all, constantly waiting for the Spring to come. I feel like nothing gives me the energy I need. I mean it's possible to find energy, but it's all artifical and not natural at all. It makes me a bit more cranky I'd like to be.

And I can feel a complete change in me when I wake up and see the sun blinding my eyes as I look out the window. Within one second of being exposed to sunshine I feel happy, full of good thoughts and energy that is telling me that I am capable of everything! I can do anything! And then that feeling lasts for like 6 months until it gets dark and the sun won't show up for weeks again, making me feel down, cold and empty again.

I can literally see the difference between what kind of person I am during the summer and what I'm like during the winter. It's drastic. No wonder that people who live in warm and sunny places seem happier all the time. All sorts of problems really seem A LOT smaller when you have to deal with them on a sunny day, lol (based on how I roll through the summer having the some problems as always).

I'm just... tired of the color grey at this point. I hate the wind.

I want to close my eyes and feel the sun warming me up. Yuh, this is the moment I find peace, always.

How about you?