I am an artist as well, (female) and I can totally relate! When life gets a hold of you and squeezes the beejeesuz out of you, it's tiring and painful and can easily break a person.

We've got bills to pay, and children to protect, and jobs to show up to, and people to please, just so many expectations to live up to! Women especially seem to be on the receiving end of this struggle, but as we live and breathe; we shall find a way! Lovely painting, I like your definition of surrealism.