post that was deleted off of reddit

This is a blog post, not just from me, but rather - and I'm assuming - a snapshot of how some of us millennials (but not limited to) feels. Please sound back if you feel this, or not.

I went through all my accounts today and all of a sudden, realized that I'm about to hit 150k in net worth, with 100k more in my condo equities.

Now before you start thinking this is one of those posts, its not.

I didn’t think I’d get here this quick. I’m 32. Truth is, there was A LOT of help along the way, from parents mostly. However, there were a lot of downfalls too. I got into this little business scuttle losing 20k in my mid 20s, which was a big deal at the time, it was all I had after couple years working out of school, saved in TFSAs... but I digress.

It feels weird man. seeing these numbers on a sheet, web pages, spreadsheets.

I am probably your average, middle of the road, PFC redditor: mid-high income, in engineering (not software), male. I invest in crypto, have an apartment, and lives in a major city. but I want to talk about more than finances, assets and equities today.

I don’t know who to tell this information to. It feels weird not telling anyone, oddly. Why do we have a culture of not knowing how much our friends make? I remember in high school we knew how much each of our friends have; mostly because its easy as most of us had nothing. We knew Jack had 20k because of inheritance and Jerry has a job at the restaurant and is spending most of it on nice clothes. Why is it once we got to a certain age, all this shit is now taboo to talk about, and so private?

Is it because it's supposed to represent how successful we are? Is it supposed to be in bad form to brag to our friends how much we have made it?

But I don’t see success when I look at this number. I see loneliness, I see sad days at work worried about making overtime. I see the number that my peers are getting, and not feeling adequate. I see the days where I’m just alone and not happy, abusing our bodies in various vices.

Some days I really want to talk to my friends and tell them that it doesn’t take much, that they can do it too. Now I'm here, that I have valuable knowledge to share, and its not hard. Its not hard to just invest a bit of money in stuff, and see the money grow. But every time I mention money people pull back, they give you one-word answers, as if it's a job interview.

Even more importantly, I want to tell people the fact that I've learned recently, is that money don’t control you. We live in a world where $ has become the goal, the representation of success, the be-all and end-all. but the real thing behind the numbers we're not disclosing is really the bullshit that is propping up the economy, the bullshit work that we've all been subjected to do, the hours of work we all put up, making pennies on the dollar for the man above. The amount of privilege that the "successful" inherently had, yet they frame it as if they "came from rags to riches"

I guess ultimately, it takes money to realize this. it takes having the money to realize that relationships matter. that friends and family matter, giving matters.

ps. I realized that after I wrote this whole thing, that this whole thesis is quite tired. but hey. its just how I’m feeling at the moment, and I think it bares repeating. maybe this shouldve been posted to anti-work(which i have just discovered lately as I've been mostly off reddit for a while) but anyways, have a good day