The last time I felt truly alive was...

in Freewriters6 days ago

Do you recognise that feeling? You slept all night, or was it tossing and turning in bed, and when you wake up hours later you feel like shit. Is that mattress any good? It has a ten-year warranty, but I've never heard of a manufacturer taking such a thing back.

How do you feel? Like me, headache and fever?

There is no answer, only sighs and groans. The first few hours are spent recovering from the night that lies behind you. The age-old scene of slowly getting going and only feeling a little better when it's long after midnight. Is the clock broken, or is it summer time while it's pouring rain outside?

When was the last time you created something, or is it not the most important thing because the most precious thing on earth is salt? There is even a fairy tale about it. A naughty child will not receive candy but a bag of salt with the rod, and whoever spills salt will get a fight or unwanted visitors, and if you sprinkle salt around your home (not against the snow) then you keep the evil forces outside. Does this all make sense? I believe I still have a few bags of salt that I bought about 12 years ago.

With all that hustle and bustle in my head, the stored information, it is hard to tell when it was the last time i felt alive.. let me think...
The last time I felt truly alive was... I don't know. What is alive? The energy it gives when you are forced to fight against the beer quay (or those who stab you in the back. Testing boundaries is not only something that toddlers do; adults also have a hand in it.).

Before I forget: the Community CCC is active again. This will be the home of @wakucat witness. Friend @gertu, and the community has already posted a competition.

See: @hive-166850


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Ken je dat gevoel? Je hebt de hele nacht geslapen, of was het woelen in bed, en als je dan uren later wakker wordt voel je je geradbraakt. Is die matras wel goed? Er zit tien jaar garantie op maar ik heb nog nooit gehoord van een fabrikant die zo'n ding terugneemt.

Hoe voel jij je? Ook zo geweldig?

Er komt geen antwoord alleen gezucht en gekreun. De eerst paar uren is het bijkomen van de nacht die achter je ligt. Het eeuwenoude tafereel van langzaam op gang komen en je pas wat beter voelen als lang na middernaccht is. Is de klok gebroken, of is het de zomertijd terwijl het buiten stortregen?

Wanneer heb jij voor de laatste keer iets gecreëert of is het niet heb belangrijkste omdat het kostbaarste op aarde zout is? Daar bestaat zelfs een sprookje over en als je een stout kindje bent krijg je geen snoep maar een zakje zout met de roe en wie zout knoeit krijgt ruzie of ongewenst bezoek en als je zout om je woning strooit (niet tegen de sneeuw) dan hou je de boze krachten buiten.

Ik geloof dat ik nog een paar zakjes zout heb liggen gekocht zo'n 12 jaar terug.

Met al die drukte in mijn hoofd, de opgeslagen informatie is het moeiljk te zeggen wanneer ik mij voor het laatst goed heb gevoeld maar ik weet wel dat het energie geeft als je tegen de bierkaai moet vechten (of degenen die je in de rug steken, grenzen uitproberen is niet alleen iets wat peuters doen, ook volwassenen hebben er een handje van.)

Voor ik het vergeet: de Community CCC is weer actief. Dit is het thuis van @wakucat and @gertu and de community hebben al een wedstrijden geplaatst.

Zie: @hive-166850

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Original text: Dutch
Prompt: see title - by @freewrithehouse
24.5.25

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I do NOT like omens, I consider that they limit us, some people say that they should NOT pass under a ladder, but if there is NO other way then they CAN NOT fly, a black cat, we CAN NOT paint it, salt as you mention in the post, IN this life there different circumstances to face, evil is always there, but people have good and bad energies, that is perceived, felt, and if this is not the case, we analyze what it says, I do NOT like negative people, I stay away from them, conclusion, omens are NOT good, some people have killed others just because of an omen.

Omens —a good topic. If you read it well you notice the conyradictions. If it comes to omens it all depends on what you want to believe. I walk underneath a ladder but can imagine it once only started as a normal warning since what is on top of it can fall down.. It reminds me of the old cartoons where we see pianos drop (movers or angry people).

I don't believe life is easy if you have to tiptoe through it but for sure some benefit from all those fears.

♥️🍀

I understand that feeling of bad sleep thanks to a bad mattress. In fact, last year I had to throw out my old mattress and buy one that is supposed to be semi-orthopedic. It should be nice and stiff but my new mattress is stiff and unpleasant.
I spent a long time trying to get used to the new stiffness of the mattress. And in the meantime, many nights without being able to sleep well and very discouraged days because of that very fact.

A bad mattress is indeed a burden and even if you "try it" in the shop it's not the sane as sleeping on it for a few nights. Mine should be soft but I can't feel it ☹️ My child's baby mattress is way softer, old and in 3 parts but I think about buying a cover and use that one.

I am thinking of buying a mattress topper to make it softer. I don't have to feel the hard springs going through it from side to side. I will also buy something to reinforce the bottom of the mattress. I am a heavy person and I see that the mattress support is bending a bit. Before it breaks I will proceed to buy a reinforcement hehe.

I have no springs, and the topper but no difference. So I believe it will be the one from the child. I thought about getting everything out of the room and sleep on the floor. A bed takes a lot of space and I rather have room instead of bumping into and walking around furniture. the house isn't that big.

 4 days ago 

We talk about hard mattresses, old, not very flexible. I wonder what life is like for those who sleep on the street and do not know any kind of mattress. And I see a growing trend of more and more people living in conditions (exactly no conditions at all) of extreme poverty, I guess you imagine that it can always be worse. Generally, we are focused on the negative. I remember you asked me how the kids were doing. I told you: FINE. You replied: Then everything is fine. And it's true, I think that's the limit we don't need to go to. The children are the beginning.

@wakeupkitty.pal y @gertu

I do not look down on anyone. I know there are people who don't have much, who don't even have anything. Who lost all their material things and even their family members. It is a very long topic to comment on. I dare say, I won't say what my right hand does so that my left hand doesn't find out.

If I can get improvements for my mattress I will try to do it now that I am working and alive. My son does have a good mattress and that makes me very happy. It's a bad day for me if I can't sleep well because of my mattress.

I'm glad your kids are doing well. If they are doing well, the parents are doing well.

 3 days ago 

My dear friend:
I apologize if my words took wings and went down other paths. Feelings are that bundle of unpredictable things, which we try to define. I have a vision anchored to my island. But I consume much of what is published in the world. I am always hurt by the unfair. As I read about it, I just began to imagine people I had recently seen lying in the street. It was ugly to see, it must be unbearable to live it. It was on a general topic. I know what a great person you are. You have my appreciation and my friendship.

Maybe I should have put some laughter in my text so it didn't feel so strong. I think these pages are for our amusement. The sadness of the world is terrible and the things we see everyday are so unfair to some. I live in a country that went from a great bonanza to a great decline. Not that we turn a blind eye, but if we can help the one in need, let's help. If we can enjoy a little after our work sacrifices, it is also good to do so. Your friend gertu.

There are also many with a way better life than we have. Let's for a change compare us as the poor with them and reach for the stars instead of always telling ourselves we don't deserve anything better because there are people more pathetic than we are. How about that?
You and I both know how hard we struggled all those years to be where we are, the bad health included.
If the poor like it or not, we worked for that mattress and it's no fun if you get out of bed like a crimple and need the entire day to recover.

You are right, wakeupkitty, I believe that both you and I, we do not compare ourselves to anyone, but it is true that there are many people who are much better off than us, after they have worked as much or less than us. I don't know, that's the way the world is, I'm not going to fix it. What I do know is that every day I get up to work hard, I do not complain. If I can help someone, I will do it with pleasure.
I just work to achieve what I have. If a mattress is going to screw me up, I sleep on the floor. It's as important to sleep as it is to work, for me.
Yes, I remember all that we have fought for. We always write, as long as you and I have known each other, about health problems, food, responsibility for children, and many other things; that's hard work.
Always onward and upward!

Actually we talk about new mattresses, hard and waste of money because it damages the back and we feel far from rested.

We are not focussed on the negative, we are realistic and discuss how we are tricked and how to solve the issue. And if it comes to extreme poverty I don't see any reason why to compare a brand new mattress I saved over 20 years for with that situation.I can also say that there are many filthy rich people sleeping on great beds and that the sofa in their limousine and private jet is way better than what I have. How come we never compare with those people?

Are we fine if the children are fine? Should it always be about the children? Then when exactly in my life is it once about me?

The only reason you say "fine" is because you hide the truth.

 yesterday (edited)

It was a: "bien". Blue color type. We didn't talk about the shade. A sky blue, turquoise or was it more like an ultramarine. In that case. Already the pink pelicans, they came out like the chambelonas on Sundays.

 21 hours ago 

Didn't we hit the pelicans about one or two weeks ago? Times flies. How is your head.. still in love with ultramarine?
Did you drink (water, not wodka) today? It's a another grey day and I wonder where we left the knive.. another exit?

I'm getting better. I was early at work. Since there will be no power for hours and hours, I've wasted hours for nothing, spent money on transportation, and returned home a little tired. I still don't think I'm in good shape, and I haven't been able to take the child to school either. I have less than two hours of internet left. I'm going to respond to comments and try to paint.