Making Space for What Matters

Good Morning world! I woke up this morning with this niggly little question lingering around in my head…How much of my energy goes to things that don’t actually do anything for me?! Not like in a massive philosophical way, but just… practically. Day to day and Hour to hour. Where am I actually spending myself? Because let’s be honest, energy isn’t some endless tap. Mine certainly isn’t.

By the time I’ve fed my starter, got the laundry going, unpacked the dishwasher, answered three WhatsApp messages I didn’t feel like replying to, and tried to remember what that one dream meant (you know, the one with the flood, the three dogs and the cupboard full of pineapples), I’m already halfway tired, lol.

And it’s not like I’m doing completely inconsequential things. I’m just doing a lot of things that don’t move the needle. Things that feel urgent, but actually aren’t that important in the grand scheme of things... Or things I feel obligated to carry, even though no one asked me to and I could definitely get assistance with along the way.

Worry. Guilt. People-pleasing. That weird pressure to say yes even when every bone in my body’s whispering no. It’s sneaky, lol! We get so used to the load, we forget to check if we’re even still meant to be carrying it.

So, this morning I made a decision, the kind you feel in your gut. I decided I don’t want to be half in anymore. Not with people. Not with my time. Not with my life. If I’m going to do something… be somewhere, love someone, show up for anything, I want to be completely there. Fully. Not distracted and burnt out and wondering if I’m doing enough. Not carrying around leftovers from last week’s spiral or replaying imaginary arguments I might have one day.

It’s funny, because the world’s always nudging us with these tiny signs. The way something no longer excites you. That drained feeling after seeing certain people. The irritation that bubbles up when you’re saying yes and everything inside you’s quietly screaming “please noooo!” haha!

I used to ignore those signs. Push through. Tell myself I’m just being dramatic. But these days?! I’m listening… noticing. Choosing better. Putting down what’s not mine. And I have got to say that it feels really, really good!! It feels like finally putting down a bag you didn’t realise was cutting into your shoulder.

So no enormous declarations this morning.. Just a deep breath and a somewhat lighter step, perhaps even with a little bit of bounce! A bit more presence in the things that do matter (to me anyway) and a lot less energy wasted on what doesn’t! I’m not trying to become a new person. Just a slightly less exhausted and over extended one, lol!

Wishing you all beautiful and intentional day ahead!

Happy Tuesday!