It is quite depressing to live with lesser personal social interaction
I realized that I am like worse than a hermit with regards to social interactions. All I get is to chat with some friend occasionally and that is via online. In the dialysis clinic I only happen to talk to someone if they talk to me first, but because I am an inherently shy person, I often just listen to other people's conversation.
At home I would only talk to my parents if I will answer a question, ask a question, ask for something, and have a short interaction to my parents and no one else because I couldn't just simply go out and talk to people and for one thing, I have no other friends around here anymore as some dies already, they are working, or they lived elsewhere.
Now my main problem that caused this is my physical disability coupled with my appearance. So it is just not possible to connect to other people because the tend to get freaked-out of my physical condition. It could be a not so big of a problem if I have no mobility issues plus pain, so it had become an issue to a reclusive person because of these factors.
My nieces are always in their A/C room all the time and sometimes I thought that they were not there because they do not go out and chat a little to me nor their grandparents. Well I do not blame them because it is really nice to be in air-conditioned room all the time considering that the heat outside is really bad as it saps energy. I hope that my nieces will not have any bone issue because they are not getting sunshine where they can get vitamin D which our bones needs in order to make the bones strong. In fact, my other niece already have a backbone issue which is why my sister went to the doctor to have it checked, but I guess that my niece is getting treatment for it but I tend to not inquire more about my niece's backbone condition.
If not for my mother's voice, this house is dead silent because my father himself is not as talkative. Boredom will get accentuated if not for the sounds around like the conversation of my parents, my mother's interaction near the house when she talks to someone, the noise of the busy street beside our house, or the bark of the dog and voices of people that I hear all the time in and around the house.
But me interacting with other people face to face is almost zero so I just wish that at least to have a more comfortable place where I can stay to give me some better well-being to combat the depression brought by non-interaction to a fellow human-being. I still wanted to attend church physically but again because of my appearance I doubt that it will be just like before plus the discomfort brought by my bones will always spoil the relative cheer that I get for socializing with my brethren to our church locale. So many members there which I do not know personally and many of my friends are no longer attending because they are attending church locale near their homes.
It is a boring state of lifestyle that I have and I have to be more patient about it because it is my life and like I said I will just try to be more comfortable with my life to be able to patch the absence of social interaction in my life which is I am noticing to be affecting my thoughts already.
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Even if yiu were healthy you are still extremely shy so how will you talk to people?
You say you would miss your family but at the same time it feels you never talk, laugh together or watch a film so this is a serious problem and it saddens me also because family lives nearby.
A hermit knows why he goes for this lifestyle — plenty of thoughts and t7hr silence can do good. You know I haven't had a visitor at my house for at least 6 or 7 years?
Do I miss it? No. It only gives me stress.
I said it before and say it again. Try to greet and speak with people and be the first. Practise it and talk with your parents and not only about needs. Day what bothers you, it can be they think you are busy.
I hope you will start painting too. Start small, just like me.
It doesn't sound good if it comes to your niece's back. 🤔
The lack of D3 increases every year and it's always noticed if it's too late.
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It is fun to watch TV with my mother but not my father. When my father for example watches the local news with us, if he did not like what the reporter or the news, he would switch the channel to the annoyance of both me and my mother.
But watching something like game shows with my mother I would enjoy it because its just fun to watch TV with my mother.
Now our TV is broken and I am yet to buy a new one. I am afraid to buy because these Smart TVs are expensive and my father has a habit of destroying stuffs that I bought like the stove that I bought which he disassembled because some part of the burner got chipped away although it can be still used, it is a gas powered infrared stove. He was also the one who broke the TV remote two times.
After seeing it I told them that I will not buy any appliance again especially when I remember that stove.
Now my parent's and form of entertainment is via Smartphones while I myself use laptop and only using a Smartphone when I am away from the house or using an app for some purpose.
I do like talking to people but I can only last long until I start to tremble, sweat, and lose my sense of taste. It is because of my anxiety issue, even when I am talking to a friend, my body acts differently, maybe because of my before, brewing illness until it got full-blown total renal failure.
Most of the time I was not the one who breaks the ice so to speak when it comes to conversations. I am not a conversationalist and when I try, these subtle signs, jests, gestures ,and actions of persons and people whom I am interacting with will soon bother me and I will end-up stopping either not talking to that person forever or will just talk to them only if they would ask a question but definitely I will not hang-up with them anymore.
I am a very sensitive person and I always feel that other people are hostile in one form of another against me and when I sense just a bit of what I said above, these people or person will be crossed-out from my interaction list.
As soon as I get much better with my backbone I will give the painting a go.
Thank you for your much valuable advices Miss @wakeupkitty I always appreciate it with my heart. 🌹🌹🌹
Lovely flower there, what is the name?
Upvoted! Thank you for supporting witness @jswit.
I guess you hot your shyness and being quiet from your father.ni hope your situation gets better.