The ugly phase of life.

The phase of my life I never like to face again , waking up each day and felt so lonely, so lost , so sad,. losing my amazing friend , my happiness , my joy and everything . it's something that makes drawn me down and silence me gradually.
sometimes it's seem I'm that I'm all alone in the world, thing falling apart from my expectations. I get discouraged and tired of everything,losing someone I truly loved makes me weak and create a hole of pain in my heart...

It's time I realized that the world means nothing nothing without my love one's, who loved, cared and cherish me . I find it difficult to forget and let go of it but seem to hard . my eye stock with tears and can never be tired of think of my memorial life.
my life has been in pain each and every day I wake up,no one talk to,to laugh wit,to gist,to exchange words and have fun with.
Each Day that passes by without feeling the love which they shown me, I left with no choice than to in a silence mood which signify heartbreak....

There was a time I will be in the mist of people laughing and discussing with them with a smile on my face but in my heart it fills with tears and sorrows.
sometimes life treat me in a way I almost get tired of and ready to give up . sleeping in sorrow and waking up so sad with tears in my eyes....

I cried in silence, smile in pain and moving forward not because I was strong , but because had no other choice .I lost the people that shows me love,faced the heartbreaks that shattered me l, and dealt with disappointment that shock my faith in life....

The phase left a mark on me, not only memories, but wound I had to form. and through life move on and grown . I know in my heart i never want to go through anything that again

The tough/challenging season of life

A tough or challenging season of life is a period when everything feels heavy, confusing, or painful. It’s a time when:

Things fall apart, your plans, your relationships, your peace of mind.

You feel stuck or lost, unsure of what to do next.

You cry in silence, even when you smile in front of others.

You wake up each day carrying a weight no one else can see.

It could be the death of a loved one, a heartbreak, failure, betrayal, illness, or even just the feeling that you’re not enough. You might pray and wait for answers that don’t seem to come. People around you may not understand, or they might leave when you need them most.

In those moments, you begin to question everything:
"Why is this happening to me?"
"Will this ever end?"
"Am I strong enough to make it through?"

It’s a season where you feel tested, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. And yet, even in that darkness, there’s a small flicker of hope, even if it’s barely visible. A part of you keeps going, even when everything says “give up.”

That’s what a challenging season is: a storm in your soul, a test of endurance, and sometimes, the beginning of a deeper kind of growth even if it doesn’t feel like it at the time.

The Season That Almost Broke Me

There was a season of my life I never want to return to.

It was a time when everything I loved felt like it was slipping through my fingers too fast, too suddenly. I lost people I thought would always be there. Some to death, others to silence, and some simply walked away without explanation. The pain wasn’t just emotional; it lived in my body tight in my chest, heavy in my bones.

Every day felt like a battle between pretending I was fine and barely holding it together inside. I would smile in public, but cry alone. I prayed, I waited, I hoped but nothing seemed to change.

The nights were the worst. That’s when the memories came back. That’s when the ache screamed louder. That’s when I questioned everything my worth, my purpose, my strength. There were moments I genuinely didn’t know if I could go on.

But somehow, I did.

Not because I was strong, but because even in the middle of that storm, something inside me refused to give up. Maybe it was faith. Maybe it was love. Maybe it was the quiet hope that this pain wouldn’t be the end of my story.

I’m still healing. But I survived. And in surviving, I discovered that even the darkest seasons can birth something beautiful

How I Made It Through

I won’t pretend it was easy because it wasn’t.
There were moments I wanted to give up, times I felt like I was drowning in pain, and days when getting out of bed felt like a mountain I couldn’t climb.

But somehow, I kept going.

Sometimes it was faith the quiet belief that even though I couldn’t see the light, it was still there.
Other times, it was sheer survival waking up and doing what I had to do, even with a heart full of heaviness.
And honestly, there were days I didn’t even know how I got through. I just did. But I know that God did it for me.
Thank you all.