Captain's Log: Stardate 07/24/2017

IDK why I'm getting so worked up about internet bull shit. I sat back and listened to my mother rant on and on until she started laughing. I guess I'm just too impatient. Too confused. Too insecure and too uncertain. Life's great and it's honestly amazing that it's great. I've got a loving family, yes we fight a lot, but we're still a family.

In the grand scheme of things, everything will be alright. I wish I didn't lash out so much at people that care about me. I burnt some bridges that I wish I didn't. People blocked me that I've never met in person before but give an extraordinary amount of respect to, why? Because they label themselves as something. I'm not hurt they blocked me, I'm just disappointed. Not in them, but in myself. I have lots to learn about, well, everything. I'm not new to this and I'm not better at it either.

I need to chill and laugh more because things are funny. If not funny, they're at least poetic. I probably burnt bridges on opportunities as well, but oh well. That's life, I guess. I think most importantly, I've realized that age doesn't define intelligence. Age defines wisdom quite well. There's a lot that older generations have to offer in regards to wisdom, maybe even the most important wisdom possible.

Times are changing, technology is developing, and revolutions are happening left and right. Some are old and some are new, but they're all different and different is good. I enjoy listening to my mother angrily speak her mind. It tells me a lot.

One thing she's worried about, perhaps the most important one, is that she's worried I'm not going to see her in heaven. I think we will always be together in some form or another. I love her very much and I'm always going to want to come home. I'm glad I'm home, there's no where else I'd rather be, no family I'd rather be with, and no life I'd rather live.